Professional Life Sucks !!!

Hey guys I'm back with yet another blog after a long time.
Whenever I feel bad about something or I miss something, I prefer to add in my collection of blogs,its my newly discovered pastime.
The next few paras will focus on my bad day ( like millions of freshers in this planet ) and it will revolve around a lot of negativity. Anybody looking for some happy writings , I would suggest to not go through this blog as it can only frustrate you.Only those ppl should read  who are frustrated with all the frustrations in life. ( Who reads my blog anyways !!! )

For people who are new to my blogs,I work in CG Mumbai and I'm a fresher with just above 7 months of experience.

As always , I came to office about 45 minutes late. When I entered my project,  I made sure that my manager ( MR. K ) doesn't see me otherwise I would have to look for some excuse, which convinces him no more.And in the first place, I fall short of excuses.
But to my pleasant surprise, MR. K was busy in a P1 call and so he didn't notice me coming late. ( For non IT ppl, P1 call is that which has to be resolved within 4 hours. Even if your marriage is taking place at the very moment or your wife is giving birth to a baby or any ******g reason. ) 
I carried my momentum forward by solving 2 more calls one of which was going to breach within 2 hours.
I deserve some accolades for this but who cares !!!

That's it. The end of happy times. The misery starts for the day !!!
TL enters.
TL: Manoj, done with the checks ?
ME: Yes ( confidently )
TL: Where is the B&M file ?
ME: Right there where it should be. In Doof. (more confident this time )
TL: Open the Doof.
I opened it.
I saw the file.There it was. Happily I showed him the findings.
TL: Manoj,What is the date today ?
ME:10th
TL:See the calendar.
I was like...is he crazy ? He is asking to open calendar from my outlook just to confirm a date.
But I had to open it (as I want a good review from him).
I opened it and cross-checked the day with the date.
It was 11.
I was like ... WTF !!!
Mind you guys, this mistake is liable to throw you out of CG.
TL: Do you understand the impact of this ? You should have informed me about this and escalated this to SDM.Business suffers a great loss due to such stupidity. How can you be so reckless ?
( He showered some GYAAN upon me as to how well he works and how should I copy him.  He made the best of every shot which he got, making me feel useless for CG and proving himself a GEM. I;m always at the receiving end and I'm good at it, used to it.)

Then comes MR. K.
Nice person btw. But he has power. He can make or break my future (or at least some part of my future).
I had to be extra cautious while answering him.
But when he threw his set of questions,I made the mess of everything as I was already frustrated with TL.
K kept on lecturing me for an hour or so, doing no good to my feelings. Just making me feel bad about me.About CG.
The last words by MR. K hurt me the most.
K: You don't understand the impact of this on your salary. In fact, management may just fire you.
I was in trauma. Just couldn't do any work now. Was about to cry.Like a baby does when you take away his/her/its lolly-pop. My mind was all engaged in getting thrown out of CG.

About 2 hours of GYAAN and hungry frogs jumping inside my tummy made me feel like leaving everything in this world and seating at the top of Himalaya or K2 and following the footsteps of the monk who sold his ferrari(after I buy a ferrari, of course) and enjoying the silence. The trees.The birds.The wind.That sort of spirituality.
Then a good thing happened. 1st for the day.
I got a call from my mom just when I was missing her the most.
She misses me a lot and always tells me to come back home and prepare for MBA,leaving aside the job.
I can feel she was crying when she talked with me. She tried her best to hide it though.
She was like...."if possible, see if you can come here for at least 2-3 days. Everybody's asking about you. And yes, Diwali's Tikka is also pending. In Rakhi also, we were not together.Why do you work for a company if you can't spare time for your family.MBA is good.Come here and prepare for it."

I think she was right. Every bit of what she told was true.
Except for leaving the job and doing MBA part.
She was right when she said that I have to take care of my family more than the company ( I mean the ppl inside the company ) who doesn't care for you.
I decided to go back home for 3 days.
I had to take leave for 1 day ,as for Sat and Sunday , we already have Holidays (Thanks to westernisation).

I had a comp-off ( which means I am eligible for a leave when I need ) and 8 Priviledge Leaves pending.
I just needed 1 to go back to my lovely family and share some great moments.
This 3 day break would be enough to survive for 3 months of frustrations in CG.
Having worked so hard for CG, these ppl should gift me a week holiday for free.(Yes, I'm really a very important resource for my project.).
But I failed to convince them for a single day holiday even when I had a comp-off pending.
I played  every trick with them. I lied.Emotionally blackmailed them. But to no avail.
They had this reason ,"the peak is going on and we can't afford to get loose , especially when so much work is pending".
They were right when they said this.

But I'm also right as heck and I also have a family which depends on me, big time.
There are ppl who take leaves ,by lying to manager that they have fallen sick and need bed-rest.
Manager himself , goes on leave for so many days, even when his family is right there with him everyday.
My family is 800 kms away and when mom wishes to see me, why cant they approve a single day leave.
I felt really sad, more for mom, than for me.
But yes, its a part of life and we do have to respect the challenges life throws at us.
Instead of complaining about the system and the management,the smart move will be to fall sick and get the leave approved.Yes, I will lie now and enjoy a week long break.

To all my friends who are in such dilemma, or any other problem in life :
Its good to be honest and true and you gotta be.
But sometimes when you know ppl wont get you, you have to play smart.

Note :
1. No offence to TL and MR. K . They both are nice ppl and I understand they have their own set of problems.They also have pressure from management level.
2.Some events have been exaggerated to add  effect.