My Day at Office !!! (And its my Routine)

I went to the office late as usual.
Had to sacrifice my lunch because I was already late for office by half an hour. A lunch at that time would make me late my 1 and a half hour.
Finally I came to my cubicle, my teammates could hear my heartbeats as I was practically running to reach office.
As soon as I switched on my PC,my Team Leader (so called TL as I believe he has no leadership skills) greeted me saying," Boss, aaj phir late ho gaye".
Anyway  it doesn't hurt me anymore as I'm used to getting such teasings from teammates( Being a fresher . ).
I looked for excuses and just blurted out, train was late.
He became red as if he himself is paying to me and coming 30 minutes late would lose him some billions.
He bossed around for some minutes and loaded me with plenty of calls which he knew  I wouldn't be able to solve.
After some 15 minutes, he went to canteen saying I need an update on this before I return.
I had plans to chat with 4 of my lovely friends on gmail but I had to sacrifice, as always.
I focussed some more on investigating the issues at hand so that I can get some relief from TL.
And I did find out a clue and I was like I have climbed up the  K2.
I presented my findings as soon as he returned.hoping my good time will start soon.
But (I hate this word "but"),he was like "this is all you can come up with.This is not accepteble boss. Just go through the documents until you find the root cause and solution of this".I was mind****ed.

When Feeling dejected, one thing always calms you and that is the girl you like.
Talking about this girl , I used to love this girl more than myself . But when she came to know about my feelings, she stopped talking to me, leaving me nowhere.
When I stopped talking with her (I still had feelings but again had to sacrify, because she didn't want to see me),one fine day , she pinged me and said we can still be friends if I make some changes.

That day onwards, I saw her just as a friend.I suppressed all my feelings.(these feelings used to arise everynight but during office hours I control my emotions).
We resumed our talks again. Thank God. I'm more than happy to be her friend,at least.
1 thing which I regret badly, however,is that I cant interest her as much as her other friends do.This is the story so far.

Anyway.... I felt dejected after my TL scolded me rather than appreciating my efforts to resolve a query by some psycho user.
I went near canteen to catch a glimpse of my girl.There he was. My Sautan.I hate it when he touches her.
My already red mood became chilly now.
It was not enough. She just saw me peeping into her and didn't even hi'd to me.Here onwards i kept on thinking what she might me thinking about me.How retardish I was to look at her so directly ?
And that sautan of me,what does she like about him,even when he doesn't like her. He is a chalu kind of person.
So many things running in my mind.
Some ideas  about yoga kept coming in between as I thought I have no future in professional life and shouldn't ask for anything. Rather should be happy with what I have.Means with almost nothing except a sweet family.After Yoga, Kapal Bharti followed.

I kept wondering why only me in the middle of so much sufferings when there are so many people in my office.What's wrong with this world ? What's wrong with my TL? What's wrong with that sautan? What's wrong with my girl? Or rather What's wrong with me ?

Is it ? Should I take responsibility here for feeling so bad for not having cool friends,cool boss and hot girl in  y life ?