To Life and Love ..... Health and Friendship .....
26th August 2008...The day when I got placed in Capgemini.
29th March 2010...This is when I got joining.
The period in between was a recession period in which lots of experienced people were fired and so I was not sure if I will get to join CG or not.
My dilemma was getting stronger as months passed without even a confirmation mail from CG.
But finally,I got a call.........The call from CG.... After more than 18 months.Yes, the wait was over. And the count down began.
I was told to join CG within a week.
In that week, I had so many plans....Had to visit my friends, my teachers, some relatives.At the same time , I had to make sure that I spend enough time with my family.
It was a week, I can't forget....I can't forget how many times I cried...But I had to leave my home, my friends, my city. ( Yes, everything comes at a cost ).
29th March...My first day
It was a day when we were supposed to complete some basic formalities and fortunately, we were allocated a project in the same day.
That time, I had no contacts in CG except for my classmate in VJTI who was getting joining letter on the same day as mine....NP (apolpgies for not writing the full name,but I can't.)
When I came to M1 office in Vikroli inside Godrej campus, I came across so many new faces , except NP.
Very quickly,8 more people joined us and since then, we became a group of 10 buddies.
It was amazing feeling... Being with new people... Good people.... Sharing jokes....It was a time when I felt I'm actually humorous(I always felt I'm boring).Whatever I say,used to make my buddies laugh...There was another Joker in the group...PR...A born entertainer....I can't feel boring when he is around.
In this gang, there were 2 serious looking guys....1 rich dude....me ... NP... 2 more girls JK and AP...and 2 more guys.I can easily say that it was the happiest month in my life ( I mean life after my junior college ) .
3-4 people from our group used to catch a shuttle a 10.50 from Vikroli station.As soon as we reached office, everyday we used to go visit a place called GHAR( we named it this way as we spend a lot of initial time here ).Drinking cardamon tea and chatting countless things in ghar was a passion in my heart.
I didn't want to sit at my desk, but I had to...
But there also, we used to chat on Office Communicator...And we used to make the plans for the day on OC only.We used to chat anything... Even when we didn't have to say anything, we would just send smilies.
Being with friends was more important to us...After chatting for about 1 and a half hour ,we used to meet again for lunch... For lunch, we had a separate place .... where nobody would disturb us....we would laugh out loud and no 1 would hear us....Total freedom !!!
1 friend , JK , used to bring lunch for me everyday. Now I realize not all people are this much lucky.I felt important because she made me feel important.By bringing this for me everyday.
I could forget my ID but she couldn't forget my part in her tiffin.
We 10 people had to adjust in table of the capacity of 8 people.But it was never a problem.
We used to discuss our findings on CG intranet.PR and me used to enlight all with some PJ's.
Everybody had hundreds of things to share in 1 our lunch break.I was normally the last to finish my part. I just couldn't hold my attention out of the conversation that was happening.Also I used to keep thinking on some jokes that would fit the context.After lunch, a round around the campus.
After an hour or so,we would come back to the hotseat and start chatting....1 best part of the chat was the group conversation we used to make....My teammates used to sometimes doubt me when I laughed so much in our OC chat.We had nothing much to do in office and this group was all in my mind.After tp'ing for another hour or so, next we would pay a visit to ghar... It is a place where we are supposed to maintain silence...but we couldn't....Just couldn't control our emotions...
After 3-4 of such meets throughout the day, 3-4 of us would meet again in the shuttle for station.
A shuttle of 40 people used to have these 3-4 people shouting and the rest would just rest after their hectic day.I personally, used to feel really bad once we depart each day...Would just think about what would happen tomorrow.. Such was an excitement...(At least inside me).
After spending a memorable 1st month...It was a time for some bad things to happen....
Now I don't feel the same openness with these people ,these people now don't understand me(after my silly incident inside the group).
I really miss them all...................Won't write about all the bad things that took place...
Just 1 hope.... Things get back in place and I again feel important in our group.....
To Life and Love ..... Health and Friendship .....
Dude chill. These things happen. Unless it was something really bad that might leave a lasting impression.
ReplyDeleteYou need to refocus on your job. Refocus on getting your energies right. Try being good with everyone irrespective of how good they are. Earn more respect through had work.
Many times it happens that people are good friends when they dunno each other. When the inadequacies start showing, some start disliking some others. It's also natural for a group in the workplace to lose its cohesiveness after a while.
So relax. I am hopeful you will find happiness in that group again. If not, find it in your work and in another group in the future.
A question if you don't mind (and it's fine if you don't answer it): Did you have a crush on the girl who brought you the lunch everyday? Your tone while describing her made me think so.
P.S.: I am enigmaticpranav from Pagalguy. A good first post I must say.
Thanks a lot Pranav for reading the blog so carefully.
ReplyDeleteAbout your question,YES. I was really desperately attached to her.
And After she came to know about my feelings, it was becoming uncomfortable for me to be in this gang and I couldn't talk eye to eye with her.
I couldn't involve myself with other friends.
Then She asked me to change my attitude towards her and she stopped talking with me.
For 4 straight months, I could see her chill with my friends but couldn't even look at her because she didn't want me to.
But Thank God...we've become friends again.We meet and talk sometimes.
Though I must admit, I hesitate to have a smooth talk with her and we don't share the same degree of openness....Nevertheless...I'm really really happy and satisfied that I can now at least be with her....
Thanks Really....Once again...
Second comings are rarely as good as first ones. Except in the case of Sachin Tendulkar! :)
ReplyDeleteThis was to lighten the mood. Let me tell you something. I was ordered (!) by a girl not to look at her, way back in 2001. The looking ban still continues (though I stopped looking by 2002) :) I am 23 now and she is nearly my age :)
Okay...chill man. Just don't get too attached to her again. Initially you might derive peace/happiness out of being around her, but 99 times out of 100 it will wither away in about 6-7 months.
" Sachin's quote "- very creative. well said dude.
ReplyDeleteI agree that time heels everything.
And i shouldn't now disturb the things around us.Anyways, I'm quite happy to be just a friend of her.
( However, I am excited enough to know what happened to your girl. Will catch you on facebook )
hey dont worry every thing will be fine :) i wish u get ur group back!! i wish i had such group:P lolz
ReplyDelete@ austere....As a matter of fact, I changed my priorities and its working :)...
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