Sunday, October 2, 2011

Mai aisa kyu hoon !!! :P

Often I come across situations where I feel I dont have enough things to talk about. I feel I am coming across as someone who is very boring and uninteresting. Dont exactly know what people think about me but this is what goes in my mind sometimes, specially when the person in front of me has an unending collection of stories to tell and I couldn't help anything but to flash responsive smiles and wait for the story to finish or wait for the new one to start. The stories just won't finish and the I just couldnt help but fake smile all the time.Although I genuinely want to listen to all the other person has to say, but the thought that I am not putting efforts to make the conversation

keeps creeping in my mind. (that too when I believe that one doesnt have to put extra effort to make it interesting, he just needs to be himself.)
Ironic , isn't it ?  The more cautious you are, more the chances that you'll screw it. Being natural is the key. Being yourself is the key.
Needless to say, I or people like me (who may be classified into introverts category) face this scenario mostly in front of gals as gals generally are the ones who keep talking and talking and talking endlessly.

If I dig up deep into it,  I feel that it doesnt matter as long as the person you are with is your friend. This is because the friend knows your every bit. And when I say friends, I mean the Friends and not the acquintances. These days, we tend to tag anybody as friend but in reality Friends are the ones who pass the tests. The test is their support when you need them the most. The test which calls for understanding of you. I believe 99 % of people in my friends list are acquintances. But the rest 1% in my list are the best friends one can have and I feel really blessed to be having such friends. Those are the people whom I am in constant touch with and I make it a point to not be out of contact with them for too long. Even when the times go busy, even when the work keeps piling up, even when you cant get time to study and you know you must study. In fact, probably that is the time when you need them the most. At least I do. There have been times when I given up on things which were very important from career perspective. And friends have always been there for me and motivated me enough to make me forget my worries or insecurites. It is them who make my life more intersting and lively.

I'll never know if this write - up will make any sense to anybody including me. The fact is this article is not supposed to make any sense. When  I know I dont talk much, I know I think too much. And its just putting thoughts into writings.


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