Sunday, October 2, 2011

Mai aisa kyu hoon !!! :P

Often I come across situations where I feel I dont have enough things to talk about. I feel I am coming across as someone who is very boring and uninteresting. Dont exactly know what people think about me but this is what goes in my mind sometimes, specially when the person in front of me has an unending collection of stories to tell and I couldn't help anything but to flash responsive smiles and wait for the story to finish or wait for the new one to start. The stories just won't finish and the I just couldnt help but fake smile all the time.Although I genuinely want to listen to all the other person has to say, but the thought that I am not putting efforts to make the conversation

keeps creeping in my mind. (that too when I believe that one doesnt have to put extra effort to make it interesting, he just needs to be himself.)
Ironic , isn't it ?  The more cautious you are, more the chances that you'll screw it. Being natural is the key. Being yourself is the key.
Needless to say, I or people like me (who may be classified into introverts category) face this scenario mostly in front of gals as gals generally are the ones who keep talking and talking and talking endlessly.

If I dig up deep into it,  I feel that it doesnt matter as long as the person you are with is your friend. This is because the friend knows your every bit. And when I say friends, I mean the Friends and not the acquintances. These days, we tend to tag anybody as friend but in reality Friends are the ones who pass the tests. The test is their support when you need them the most. The test which calls for understanding of you. I believe 99 % of people in my friends list are acquintances. But the rest 1% in my list are the best friends one can have and I feel really blessed to be having such friends. Those are the people whom I am in constant touch with and I make it a point to not be out of contact with them for too long. Even when the times go busy, even when the work keeps piling up, even when you cant get time to study and you know you must study. In fact, probably that is the time when you need them the most. At least I do. There have been times when I given up on things which were very important from career perspective. And friends have always been there for me and motivated me enough to make me forget my worries or insecurites. It is them who make my life more intersting and lively.

I'll never know if this write - up will make any sense to anybody including me. The fact is this article is not supposed to make any sense. When  I know I dont talk much, I know I think too much. And its just putting thoughts into writings.


Sunday, September 25, 2011

State of the Heart

                  Sitting by the window, trying to contemplate what my life is meant for, facing
snow white moon, a dark room, rainy night, awesome ambience…Playing All India
Radio (my favorite fm channel :) ) in the background for effect, which is currently
playing “You’re Beautiful”. Beautiful chords. Adorable voice.
As I write this, suddenly clouds come over and like typically in Mumbai,

rain
pours down heavily and in no time, its water everywhere. I love rainy nights. Love the
touch of rain-drops, love the sound of droplets, and love the rainy smell of sand. Perfect
settings for having an insight into my life.
                  Going deep down my thoughts, I start to remember all little things that made life
great. As if God planned it, it plays a song which I used to listen non-stop in my hay-
days, once upon a time.”Saathiya” it is. I think about her and I look five years back.
Perfect time that was. I think about bringing a similar joy into my life. I give some
thought, I’m thinking and thinking and then it plays a song which I never heard before.
So I switch the channel thinking its high time that I listen to my most favorite song right
now. This song at such a lovely rainy night will make it awesomely beautiful ambience
for the night. And God swear, it plays “ Ye Tumhari Meri baatein Hamesha Yuhi
Chalti Rahe”. There’s something special about this song. I connect deeply to this song.
Whenever I love the time I spent with the best of my friends, this song almost always
beats in my heart. And when I talk about my best friends, believe me you, they are the
best friends one can have.
                          At this point of time,I suddenly remember a treat thrown by one such friend on
his getting selected in NITIE. That party was set almost at similar time and in similar
ambience, in Palladium, Phoenix Mall. From the core of my heart, I badly wish that
night back !!! Those 6 buddies who drank no end, enjoyed RCB vs MI semifinal match
and surprisingly, 3 out of us , including me, cheered for RCB. This grabbed attention
of almost everyone in the Café as there was hardly anyone supporting for RCB. And
suddenly we were the cynosure of all eyes inside. People came and showed aggressive
cheering for MI’s but it got very interesting. Ultimately it was RCB who qualified for
the final against CSK. One amazing thing is still fresh in my mind. I drank something
thinking it’s a lemonade. From the 3 pitchers which we ordered, I drank the most of it.
After a while, everyone around me started moving up-down, east-west, the people, the
players, the LCD, the walls and even my glasses. That’s when I smelled something fishy
and the clever part of me woke up. I started probing. Later I came to know that it was
Rum and lemon part inside, which I had mistaken as Lemonade, was mint. This was the
time I got to know my stamina which I always underestimated.
                      Thinking of all the good times made me feel so lucky that I couldn’t help but list all
small things that make life great :
1. Have a sip of hot tea with best buddies in the rains.
2. Surprise your loved ones by getting them something which they need and savour
the smile and happiness in their eyes.
3. With all the due respect, say hi – hello to building watchman, bus conductor ,
canteen servants and ask about their whereabouts. Connect with them.
4. The nature is damp and fresh and most colourful in July’s. If you are fortunate
enough to have fun-loving friends , go have a taste of Lonavala / Matheran at
least once. Walk in the woods and you will have the time of your life .
5. Don’t take people for granted, especially those who you love the most. Do not
hesitate to ask your sister about her likes / dislikes. Go shopping with her. Gift
your mom a saree and your dad , a watch , at least. The happiness which they
show will be nothing less that a million dollar gift.
6. Always follow your heart. If your heart says do it, then do it. Forget the
consequences.
P.S. Request readers to share one thing which make them happy or anything they
wish to share, in the comments below.